The Breaking Point

This week has gone from 'okay' to 'horrible' in the span of 2 days. I had my year end evaluation only to realize that my boss will not be recongnizing me for my achievements this year due to some corporate politics. Of course, after spending the last 1.5 years doing nothing but working I did not take this well. People keep telling me that it is not a big deal. But to me, it is. I left my family, friends, and a city I loved to relocate, work like a dog, and have no social life. The sacrifice was suppose to pay off in a promotion, title, 'exceeds' rating, etc. Or so I thought. I hate the fact that it isn't about what I did, its about how I played the game. And this season I didn't do to well. Or maybe it was my boss who didn't do well since he ultimately is the one who pushes these things through. In any case, I can't believe that they were willing to de-value everything I worked and strived for this year. I have thought it was time to leave for 5 months, this just proves that there is no need for loyalty.

So realizing that my 'work' life was falling apart (I can't think straight at work unless I am thinking about ways to leave) I started retreating into my 'cave'. Only to have my friendly neighbor tell me that she has seen a guy at my window a few times over the past few weeks. Now, I had a problem with this in August but had assumed it was resolved. So now I am terrified of being in my apartment, alone.

Okay, so work sucks... home sucks... what more can go wrong? Well, I have had to endure lectures from family about all the things I should 'have' done differently over the year to ensure that they rated me an 'exceeds'. Also, about how I should get bars for my windows. And finally, what actions I should take to ensure no one thinks they can treat me like they have been, both personally and professionally.

A year and a half of extreme stress, no work-life balance, and exhaustion...I think I'm broken. Enough!